my problems hide in numbers.

So I was having a talk with my friend, who thinks my eating disorder has been over for over a year now, and I made a comment like ‘I don’t know how I ‘did’ it for so long and her response was. “I think you were just lazy, it was an easy thing to do.” 

this was a week ago. I can’t get that out of my head. She called me lazy for having an eating disorder. There is nothing about this that is lazy or easy. I’ve struggled for years with this and not once did I feel like this was the easy way out. I went through more pain and work with this and continue to.

I never make comments towards anyone or their weight but it’s bugged me to the point where I have to call her out. She weighs 257lbs, but has the audacity to call me lazy? We go to the gym and the next day she’s stuffing her face with fast food, soda, pizza, you name it she eats it. Exercise never outdoes a bad diet. I have to force her to go to the gym when we go and she called me lazy?

You know what lazy is? Instead of walking you sit on your ass. Instead of working out, you play games on your computer or eat. THAT IS LAZY!

I can’t stop thinking about what she said. It’s constantly on my mind.

I’m going to need support and/or a buddy system.